so basically my feelings towards it are completely burnt out. i used to enjoy it but now its just getting annoying and frustrating. Most importantly not fun to me anymore. I don’t even think i ever thought it was.
my main problems are that we have a small guard. like less than 13 small. And they think of me one of the best spinners With the most potential and easiest person to teach work to. And everyone is older than me, they’re all mostly juniors with one softmore and im the freshman because the rest of them quit while they could.
Another thing is i have one of those bitter guards that will hate you and take it up the butt if you quit WILL NOT UNDERSTAND.and i will see each one of them everywhere i go for most of my high school life because for some stinking reason we are some how together through something.
don’t get me wrong i like teammates its just that they get really upset when someone quits because tiny guards often look like shit compared to any guards with more people. at least to them.
Also im sure every guard has that one person who is just completely in love with it and says its their life and is the best at everything. Well that girl in my team will harass the fuck out of me if i quit, i know because shes done so to everyone who has.
i really don’t wanna do Guard anymore even i may be really good at it, these past two seasons have been hell for me.
its just i get really sad when i see other dance teams at school who actually get appreciated for their hard work actually having FUN, it makes me wanna cry. our WHOLE team isn’t recognized for our hard work even though we do pretty good at competitions. Even our band director doesn’t cut us any slack, but i here that’s how it is with most guards anyway, but still.
Sometimes i wonder what it would be like on drill team or cheer.
ONE MORE THING. Also me being on the team is kinda breaking the stereotype for guard, which i enjoy doing because it shows that not all guard members are what people usually say a guard is.
If your not happy, dont stay. Lifes too short to do anything you hate.